Monika walked through the door, distressed and mournful. A few months ago, out of nowhere, her husband had passed away. She had not even been able to say goodbye. She had not expected for him to pass away and let alone so soon. He was only 53 years old. After welcoming her, she sat a little uncertain and tensely waited for what I would say. I took a deep breath and nodded my head from side to side.
“Your husband is here; he had already arrived two hours ago. Since on the other side space and time do not exist, I had asked him if he could arrive after you. When you came inside, he was walking by your side.” I felt pressure on my chest and I intuitively gripped my heart. Slowly his energy was working on me, and I freely allowed it to come through to me. That is how I met her husband and slowly started to examine him. It was a kind, calm and modest energy.
“Your husband passed suddenly. He himself is still shocked by this. He is showing me a forest and mentions mushrooms. He asks whether you have enough mushrooms for Christmas.” It was October and Christmas was around the corner. Monika did not hold back her tears and called out with amazement in her voice “Paľko loved mushrooms. He died when he was picking mushrooms. Fortunately, our son was with him and he did not die alone.”
“Your husband was a very kind and calm person. He let other people talk without interrupting. I would even say that he was not very talkative.” Monika nodded. “When I asked him to tell me something about himself, he replied that we should talk, and that he would listen to us.” Monika finally had smiled a little. “Paľko would say exactly that. Can you please ask him how is there? Where exactly is he now?” I drew my attention towards her husbands’ soul. He showed me a dark path, it looked like a tunnel, where an unknown door opens at the end. From his feelings I felt concern and uncertainty about where he was going and what awaits him on the other end. The doors opened slowly, they looked antique and seemed very familiar to me. When you touch and look upon them, you begin to remember, that you know these doors and that you have been here before. Crossing through the doorway, I felt Paľko’s feelings from arriving to the other side – FROM ARRIVING HOME. Your husband told me this:
“I did not know where I was going and what was waiting for me. Throughout my life no one had led me to God nor Jesus.” I felt from his thoughts a bit of sadness, even emptiness. Souls communicate with me through their thoughts, by which they show me various shapes with their memories. By means of feelings, they project their own feelings on to me, also their attunement and unprocessed emotions. By their energy I can feel what kind of person they were in life. Paľko continued “On the other side I felt an incredible peace… he added a beautiful sentence, with a lovely, deep meaning. “I have been received here with much friendliness, nobody has judged me for my old shirt.”… I translated back to his wife the words that were said through his thoughts and feelings. “I think that your husband did not have much of a happy life and childhood. I perceived a sort of shame for his own family, and that he belonged to them. I think that his family drank a lot and created a bad reputation for his family. You and your son were his real family. His childhood marked him so much, that he withdrew into himself, he was softer. He used to observe people that he met and situations that he went through in silence and with distance. He did not trust his surroundings, which stemmed from his childhood.” Monika was taken aback by the information I had just said. She nodded her head with agreement, which confirmed their truth. “Paľko had a difficult childhood and was so ashamed of his family to the extent that before our wedding, he suggested to me, that I should keep my maiden name. He did not want me to be named after his ancestors. Though I loved him, and it did not matter to me, I accepted him and his last name.” Monika added proudly.
“Your husband showed me an encounter with Jesus. He said that he had not known him, but that he is quite a nice guy.” By his simple statement, we both laughed. His words spoke of knowledge. In life when you encounter a person, whom you have heard so much about, but had not had the honour of meeting him personally, but once you finally meet, despite your barriers and distrust in others, you find out that you can really trust him and you start to slowly open up to him.
“He showed me Jesus sitting on a large rock. Around him in a circle sat many children. He was telling them something. Pavol continued: “Jesus loves children and children love him. He gladly tells them various stories and they lovingly listen.” Pavol continued with his own description and view of Jesus, whom he met on the other side. “Jesus is very friendly and modest. If he sees that I am hesitant, he does not press his own thought nor opinions on me, instead he gives me a friendly pat on the shoulder and lets me think on my own. He speaks so wisely and with such calm, that suddenly all quiets and settles down. He radiates unconditional love, peace, and humility. He accepts me as a brother and does not act as something more. He said that we are all equal. I am sorry that I have not known him until now. I feel very good in his company. He has accepted me without any judgements nor condemnations. Only now I know that heaven is real and only now have I understood the meaning of the word, which people have confused in their lifetime and that I did not understand at all. Only now have I understood and felt what God’s love really is. I am sorry that I had not understood this during my life.” After these words however he was shaken, and was silent for a while, as if he were listening to something or someone, and continued talking. From his expression I could suddenly feel he was moved, even so in the middle of his sentence he wiped a tear away from his eye.
“Jesus told me that I had understood it during my lifetime. That I had experienced God’s love with you, I had given it to you and received it from you. I did not have enemies, even though I had a heavy heart for a few people. I was unable to get angry and do harm to others. If I did not help, I did not harm. I loved you both with all my heart and soul and continue loving. I know understand that my knowledge was overtaken by ignorance. I did not know that I already live in God’s love. Only now have I fully realized it.” Monika had been crying silently this whole time… She cried from being touched by his message. She cried from happiness, because she knew that her husband was at a beautiful place and he is really well there. Even though she realized, here in the physical world, she really missed him. But after her husband’s words spoken through me, she felt peace and finally accepted his death. She understood that everything is different than how it usually seems from the outside. That everything has very deep, and often misunderstood meaning.
Monika, after seeing me, left as a different person. Peace radiated from her, even though the grief of the physical loss of her husband persisted. Though I could sense from her a feeling of acceptance and understanding that everything is exactly as it should be.
With love and light Andrea
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